2024-01-07: Is this my new baseline?
This week, my HRV1 was over 30ms 5 out of 7 days, and actually broke 40ms on three of those days.
I haven't seen 40ms since the beginning of December, and I haven't averaged this high since the beginning of September.
More importantly, I feel balanced and well. I just hope I can maintain this.
What went well?
- Chores: I got a couple of maintenance chores completed that had been sitting on my to-do list for months.
- Balance: I made a point to schedule a bit of rest every day, whether I felt like I needed it or not. My hope is that if I manage my energy and rest before I need it, I might be able to ward off burnout.
- Hobbies: This quarter, I'm focusing on drawing and music. I started reproducing my favourite Rage Against the Machine song in a DAW2 with the intention of producing a remix.
What am I thinking about?
Lots of thoughts about Autistic burnout. How I used to spend so much time and energy trying to figure out why I was so chronically exhausted and tired, and all of the random reasons I suspected. When really, I just needed rest and to be alone and away from sensory things.
What's up for next week?
My wife's been away visiting family for the last couple of weeks, and next week she's back! I'm mostly planning to take it easy, hang with my wife, and spend some time working on my remix.
1: Heart rate variability, which is a possible indicator of the physical signs of stress. ↩ 2: Digital Audio Workstation — basically, music production software. ↩